So I'm still here, I guess they're going to hire someone before they let me go. How wonderful is that? I think it's so funny that they were trying to be sneaky about it. So I'm pulling my duty at the front desk today. I've planned our senior counsel's retirement party for Monday - food is ordered, just waiting on the invoice so I can have a check waiting for them when they deliver the food. Will be interesting if I'm here on Monday to see the fruits of my labor.
So here I am, sitting at my desk waiting. Now usually waiting means I'm in the middle of a project and am waiting for more information to come my way. Today, waiting means, I'm waiting for the ax to fall, you know, getting FIRED. OK, I know what you're thinking, oh my god, aren't you panicked? No, actually, I'm not. It will be a relief to be out of an abusive work situation, a situation that makes my body ache on an every day basis and has taken a toll on my health. OK, now you ask, how do I know I'm getting fired. Well, see, they were trying to be sneaky and post my job, interview people while I'm still here. There is one main problem with their idea. I'm not stupid and guess what, NO ONE likes my supervisor, so ladies and gents their dislike for her has given me access to inside information. HA! So I'm waiting and waiting gives me time to think. So where to from here?
Well, I really need to think about what I want to do and how I want to do it. I'm not a 20-something, so I've been doing the work thing for quite awhile. Isn't it about time I figure out what I really, REALLY want to do and make it happen? Seriously. I need to take advantage of the upcoming "situation". So it's time to plan...
Wish me luck!
Friday is just around the corner. No plans, still not feeling a 100% and it's still raining cats and dogs here. Can't say anything special is happening around work. I have to say it feels pretty grim. Morale, not so good - at least with the support staff. It is really time to start looking. At least I have my Pandora Radio stations to keep me company.
I've been getting organized around the house. Been giving a lot of stuff away to charity. Need to make space. I've now sold 3 books on Amazon. Have to ship them off today. I'm trying to finally put my stamp on our house.
Maya and I went to DC over Memorial Day weekend. We had such a nice time. I got to see my girlfriends, Jill and Connie. That made me so happy! Maya and I took the Chinatown bus - fast and cheap. Here is a picture of us waiting for the bus.
Well here I am at the end/beginning of another week. This week is going to be different. I’M SERIOUS! See, I have avoidance issues, which don’t serve me well, in fact, they end up screwing me. So enough already. Tired of hiding, tired of the anxiety. So I assume, initially, this process is going to suck, but the end result will be worth it. Driving my life instead of life driving me.
Yes, one day closer to Friday! I currently don't have plans - but wait- something I'm sure will come up! It's the power of positive thinking.
So, what's been going on lately? Well Maya and N are out for the count. They've both had a nasty bug, which I refuse to get. Not happening. I've got a lot to do around the house this weekend and no flu, etc. is going to stand in my way. I've been trying to set up my studio/workspace forever now. This weekend is it!
Seriously! Can't I just stay in bed? Will I really miss that much? I think I'm headed for a down swing. Blah, not a good time for a bout of depression. Must press on-don't have much of a choice anyway. Maybe that's good.
Maya is playing with my old Barbies. Needless to say my 30+ year old Barbies aren't looking so good. She enjoys them anyway. She's pretending to make them dinner.
So, now what...
Stephanie
So an email was sent out last night from the new person in accounting. Apparently, I have some new tasks added to my workload. It seems that they are moving tasks away from the receptionist. It looks like she may be next when it comes to "laying off". Let's see. We've lost our COO, she walked out. Our office manager was let go last Friday and they're trying to cut Michelle's hours - she's in my department. Gees, things are not looking good. I guess it is truly time to update the resume. It makes me sad. I need more money - who the hell doesn't - but I like it here, I like my team. It just seems like things are starting to fall apart. BOO!
